Today is mine and Caseys’s 2 month anniversary:D
isn’t that exciting and wonderful! hehe :)
2 months ago, he asked me out, in the middle of the seaa, with the moon and the stars shining and the waves up to our knees :)
Since that day, i can call him my Sweetheart and wear his jumpers, i can tease him by singing his favourite song,
”bluuee lips, blueee sky…blue…the colourr..of..thee..earthh..from FAR FARRR AWAYYY..”
i can hold his hand, and then hold his hand again ,and then curl up in his arms and bump his head by mistake and he wont be angry. We can talk about when we grow up and i’ll have long hair to my elbows,and i wont scare him off(too much) and talk about car arguements we might have and, only sometimes, ill rearange my first name with his last name And i have to look after him when he’s got man flu and he has to make sure i believe that everything’s going to be okay. I get to tell him how cool he is to wear scarfs and we can stay up talking to half 7 in the morning and we can pray and talk to Jesus, about everything and anything. And as we get closer, we get closer to God. He is absolutely everything<3 we can have Public Displays of Atension and my freinds all fall in love with him. Even the boys. And i get to chat to his mummy and meet his nanny , and i get to meet all his little animals and i can be blown away by his beautifulgentle heart and get butterflies when he looks at me.
at the start of the summer, i wrote this..
“I’d a really nice night tonight,and a really nice chat to a boy i only met, about Jesus and his story,and mine,and about what he loves,+what i love. it was lovely,+so unexpected. His heart,very precious. <3
Just one of those wee moments which makes you smile,and feel so at home. I’m not even sure why? Thankyou Jesus<3 “
little did i know, id be get to be his girlfriend.
Thankyou Jesus:) <3
Love that will not betray you, dismay or enslave you, it will set you free.♥
I wonder… if you know how much you move me? How much you inspire me? You blow me away. You make me feel like its okay to be me. You’ve helped set me free, from so many things. I’ve never felt so free. I’ve never felt so ‘me’.
That was May 29th, that we first spoke :). We were at exodus and I was wearing a suit and I felt silly and you were beautiful and the thought of actually going over and finally talking to you seemed like the scariest thing in the world. But I had to know you, I had to. You were fascinating.
‘If people were rain, I’d be a drizzle and she’d be a hurricane’
But now, you’re helping me realize, I’m a hurricane too. Helping me realize who I am. What I am. How to love. What it means to be a man and to be alive and breathing and have dreams and passion and fire. With you, God is so close and so real. The first day we met up together, on the rocks, in the sea, with the waves, the rain, and the thunder… I have never experienced God like that, ever. He was right under our skin and all around us and He made our bones literally tremble. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alive as I did in that moment. It feels like nothing could EVER come close to that, but I know that was just the beginning and greater things are yet to come and that just blows me away.
I am in AWE of Him, and I can never thank you enough for showing me. For helping me. For being you. For seeing truth and dreaming beauty and creating your art. Never stop being who you are, because there is something so precious and powerful inside of you, and every single person you come into contact with sees it. I am so blessed by you, we all are. You stir up so much passion inside of me.
So… two months ago today… we went for a little walk… and as usual we ended up… in the sea :) (lets go back in soon? I’ve been dry a little too long :)) We took off our shoes and rolled up our trousers and went for a paddle. The water was freezing but we never really mind. We walked out up to our knees and tried to sink into the sand. We’re facing each other and the waves are just perfect and there’s this big big full moon in the sky and it’s lit everything up for us just enough. I’m looking right at you and I realize… oh… oh wow… this is it, I have to ask her NOW. this is the moment! And I panic and I try to talk about stuff like the moon or the waves or the sand beneath our toes, anything… anything… but I know I can’t be scared I know it’s right I know this is the perfect moment and I should just trust and if we’re meant to we’ll just flow, flow like the water we’re so naturally drawn to and THEN the words ‘okay… will you go out with me??’ blurt out of my mouth and I can’t believe I’ve just asked you and I watch as … you… you give me the biggest smile ever, you nearly fall over into the sea, and you say… ‘yes!’ And I don’t know if I’ve ever been so happy and excited in all my life. It felt like a dream. Then we reached out, and we got to hold hands for the first time. In my head, I’d always expected to say more when that happened, but, I couldn’t speak. The peace that I felt finally holding your hand after months of longing to, was overwhelming.
And so we walked into the water apart, and we walked out (stumbled out… our feet went numb cos we spent so long out there :)) together, holding hands :)
I will keep you safe <3 I will thank God for you every single day. I will treat you not by the standards of this world, but by God’s standards. You deserve nothing less. You are His princess. And I will honour you and keep you safe and happy, share love and life with you, dream, worship, build a future and go on adventures with you every day for as long as you and He let me. I am so excited, life with you has been incredible, and I am so grateful for you and everything you are.
‘There is a design, an alignment, a cry of my heart, to see the beauty of Love as it was made to be’